Just sitting in the hotel room.

It is Monday night and I have surgery tomorrow. We had to get here tonight because check in time in the morning is at 6:30 and I have to do some fun prep work tonight. I am just being a smarta$$. I have to drink Magnesium Citrate, two bottles. I told Abbie is was like drinking syrup that was lemon flavor. Super gross!!!! I have to clean my system out so to speak. YUCK!! My sisters, Kate and Kelley, were both giving me crap how I would blog from the toilet tonight. I will have everyone know, I am sitting in our hotel room at the table! I may not sit here long but, hopefully long enough to get this blog done.

Jason ran to Best Buy. I was giving him crap this weekend about our tub T.V. in the living room upstairs where I will probably be spending the next week at in the chair. I think he totally took me serious. We are getting a new TV!!!!! Yahoo. Finally a LCD. I am so excited, 27 dresses comes out on DVD tomorrow and it will look great on the new TV. If you haven't seen that movie, defiantly rent it! I thought it was hilarious. I went with a couple of my friends and I thought we were going to pee our pants laughing at a couple of the scenes.

So, I will just talk about this for a little bit but, I know I put up a big front about having cancer and also having surgery. People tell me all the time how great I am handling it. Well, I am scared to death. The next week will either be great or terrible. No gray area so to speak of. I had the hardest time saying goodbye today to Annie and Abbie at school. When I was putting Abbie to bed last night, she asked me if I was going to die. She knows I won't but, she keeps thinking about my Grandpa Boster. We have visited his grave since the girls were babies and they know he was married to little Grams and he died of cancer. It is hard for them to understand that my cancer is different. I am sure they are bombarding my mom tonight. They feel comfortable talking to anyone about it but, especially her. We have always been honest with them about things and this is not an exception. They need their questions answered by whom ever they talk to. So, if you see my children and they ask you a question about me or this, please use sensitivity and tell them the truth.

Okay, I am going to go and enjoy Dancing with the Stars. I have to spend the next three hours preparing myself to down another magnesium citrate. (It will take that long to get the last one out of my mouth!!!!YUCK). (choking noises in the background) Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

And, I am going to explain to everyone how to leave a comment!... type in your comment and then at the bottom use the anonymous spot but, don't forget to type your name in on the comment box! That way I will know who the comment is from. I need you all right now! Thank you.